I S L A N D C H I C

sabato, maggio 29, 2004

home sweet home
*muack* think i'm gg to bed agn a lil while later. heh, popped over to my cuz's place last nite aftr dinner @ bt mkt. Then decided to sleepover on a whim. lol, no toothbrush, no clothes... just borrowed stuff. heh. and i came back with a new skirt and top! =grin= my da4 jiu4 damn funny, went to shanghai and bought clothes with labels tht wrote
"age 10" and another "age 8" on thm. "-_- haa. and we're like wad, 18??? he has pretty gd taste, the designs are nice. (better thn my dad, but yeaH. men dunnoe how to shop la) mnged to fit in, but the skirt became a mini on me.

talked lots thru the nite...
oh and heather's in Life!! hmm she's my cuz's cuz and my rg snr. someone i kinda look up to. she's another high-flyer, fantastic grades, gd looks, athletic, personality... she's gg to read law in cambridge... like, wow. hmm. here's the article
Mister, you cannot enter

inspired. heh. but i've gotta stop slacking first.

Gemstar blogged on 5/29/2004 10:28:00 AM

giovedì, maggio 27, 2004

you are paleturquoise
#AFEEEE

Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well.

Your saturation level is low - You stay out of stressful situations and advise others to do the same. You may not be the go-to person when something really needs done, but you know never to blow things out of proportion.

Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

Gemstar blogged on 5/27/2004 10:05:00 PM

mercoledì, maggio 26, 2004

Yikes. i'm dwn with a sore throat agn. cept tht it's not a superficial one, feels as tho i've multiple ulcers all the way back in, and it hurts loads whenever i try to swallow.

darn. i'm really prone to falling sick these days. =/ bad bad bad. all those commensals having a field day with my body. I notice afew lil wounds and scratches tht never ever seem to heal? and they itch like mad. erKz.

2 more days. ren3!!!!!!!!!

Gemstar blogged on 5/26/2004 10:28:00 PM

domenica, maggio 23, 2004

LaZy SatUrdaY
mmf. was so blurrr today... was awaken by elis at 8 plus to find the maths tutor dwnstairs.thn aftr 2 hrs *phew* thought cld slack abt hr more... but sy turned up. gosh. i've so lost track of time manz... don't even know my own schedule anymore.

did a lil bit of wrk. =) but otherwise... slacked the rest of my day. napped, spent the rest of the time reading the O.C episode guide off their website. just love the series, it's pretty real, and definitely not the sappy teen flick kinda thing.. not to mention the eye-candy-esque cast. =D i think ryan's absolutely adorable. he has this droopy eyes, lost puppy kinda look. heh. yepz, and marissa's gorgeous, and it's pretty amusing watching the antics of seth and summer. pity i kinda keep missing the show on thursdays. so am downloading afew now. but... progress has been pretty slow.

hmm. hafta start muggging soon. warh, sian.

Gemstar blogged on 5/23/2004 12:24:00 AM

venerdì, maggio 21, 2004

hmm. just a song's tht's been in my head these days,
aftr all tht's been gg round abt me.

to you: clear things up, u'll definitely feel much better aftr tht.
*hugz* take care. i'm right here if u need me.

Walk AwaY
hey girl, what is the matter?
you're crying your eyes out again

walk away
you're worth more
than he'll ever realise
baby walk away...
Spare yourself this pain
Can't you see that he's not worth it?
You're not meant to be treated this way
Baby walk awaY.

maybe it's a lil too extreme? i gs it's nvr easy letting go. *shrug* i realize i'm the type who listens more to my head thn my heart. am the sort who walks away... only to look back? no regrets tho. =)

smth exciting to look forward to... our bc anniversary's this sundaY ! 23rd MaY. it's been erm... 5 yrs? wahaa. aftr seeing xuan off at the airport mid sec 4... it really has been ages. can't help but miss the times we've had together. but thn agn, i gs pple change, we're not the us we were 2, 3 yrs ago?! and i have a feeling i'll be damn awkward and uncomfortable. *hesitates* maybe i shldn't turn up. we'll see.

Gemstar blogged on 5/21/2004 10:10:00 PM

martedì, maggio 18, 2004

food, glorious food
Doing the food chem tutorial makes me hungry. =/
I have a feeling, if i ask my mum abt the why the ingredients are added in a certain order, she'll prob know the ans. Like, why must be the egg yolks+ lemon juice be stirred in last and not before?? =laughs= ermm.... so tht it will not turn out totally lumpy and inedible?? *scratches head* *hiakz* Maybe i shld try to make a lemon meringue pie or smth.

yawn
am totally lethargic these days, just can't get enough of slp. warh, sian.
hmmm... on a happier note,i actually fixed my com !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *triumphant look* can finally listen to my mp3s, aftr a mnth plus w'o music. turns out the problem was some damaged/non-existent sound component which i had to reinstall. entire thing was a hassle, those tech-support pple called me twice whilst i was having lessons la!! so paiseh, lucky it was dr econs and mr wong's nice.

Gemstar blogged on 5/18/2004 10:57:00 PM

domenica, maggio 16, 2004

ha. this blogskin kinda caught my eye. it kinda exudes a sweet warmth don't u think??
=) awwww. the orignal stuff written at the side columns a lil kiddish tho. *cringe* will change it soon.. but otherwise i like it.

*hiakz* too bad for u bear, barf all u like.
ran a few rounds today! was kinda late la. aha. 2 morning calls (thx dearie!!) managed to wake up, but i spent ages in front of the mirror trying to slot the temp. contact lens into my right eye. it's huge. =/ thn had to pack the college day stuff.. hee. for all i know, this might become a routine. but really, i run more for the fun of it, get the adrenaline pumping, and the endorphins in the bloodstream... so i am more awake and chirpy la. hee. not very helpful to those who're running seriously, i gs. heh, paiseh.

hmm. met up with yit and pq today! warha. tht girl's as mischievous as ever... she turned up with belated birthday gifts for me and yit... when it was HER b'day some days ago. damn paiseh la... cos we were acty planning to get her a lil smth before her arrival, but she turned up b4 we cld do anything. grin, and she was laughing at our embarrassed expressions. =lol= she gave me a pair rainbow-coloured toe socks(damn kewt)+ a picture frame + and pink undies with pandas printed on thm. 0_o *doing* thn she was wearing this totally innocent face... "eh i forgot wad i got for u all already.. cos i bought them so long ago." haa. so sweet of her la, considering yea.. my b'day was eons ago. wad to do? it's been ages since we last met up.

thn had lunch at taka... i had shrooms meal with cheese fries! haa, yea.. the shrooms burger fr. kfc is really damn nice. lately, i think kfc stuff are more worth it thn those at macs. they scoured the food court for stuff. thn kinda updated ourselves on each others lives...i bought a really sleek pair of cat ear-rings! and of course the hunt for pq's elusive slippers (her b'day present fr. us)

had a gd laugh abt how superficial some guys were... cos yit was planning to catch troy at 2.30.. and pq wanted to join her so tht she cld drool at brad pitt agn.. (she caught first row seats the last time) haa, so was bugging the guy franz for a movie treat, since it was pq's b'day anyhow. aiyoh, they were like how reluctant la? when yit msged thm they were like, is she chio?? Lol, she definitely is, chio, bubbly, kewt....and.... happily attached. but of course we weren't gg to let thm know tht. ahaa. =sheesh= but didn't wrk out in the end... and poor yit was trapped in the middle feeling bad for both parties.

tsk. i dunnoe. just came to mind this keychain thingy tht yuanjin has, " men have feelings too, but who cares??" in a sense, guys are more thick-skinned la. so haa, they can withstand a higher threshold of teasing and suanning.. i gs i find it easier to be totally frank and blunt with thm, they kinda forget really easily. haa. in other words, yit u should have just told them off la. i mean it's fine if they refuse to treat, but the way they refused was damn ungracious la, and if i may add petty. erKz.

college day perf. was pretty okay, considering we spent qte some time sweltering in the lt without air-con in those red-padded blazers. -_- ha, the guyz practically soaked through their t-shirts and get this... their blazers too. ahaa. kim's one had 2 eyes with a teardrop.. damn funny, he was shrugging his shoulders and back.. so that it looked as tho it was sniffing away! haa. dr the opening ceremony, i kinda realized tht my class was seated directly below where i was standing, so was sneaking grins at thm. heh... jac was like, "u smiled, so sweet!" aww.

air-con is a precious commodity in nj. so when it finally did come on... we were like, thnk heavens !

hmm. aftr tht, popped by the food fair for a while, gawd, it was suffocatingly crowded, and stuff like so ex!!! bought this tiny portion of potato salad for 2 bucks. conclusion: i definitely can make better stuff thn them. =/

aiyoh, after the performance... took a looooooong time waiting at the track. =laughs= went sprinting with becky, jy, cf... to think zw was wondering who the 3 spastic kids were. ahem. cept, tht halfway suddenly hit by this wave of nausea, because of the empty stomach... cld feel all tht acid. =/ qj was nice to offer cookies for me to munch on... this is bad, old problem's coming back agn. blah, maybe i shld just obediently go hme have dinner la, instead of feeling as tho the entire world has to accomodate to me. thn they can just take their own sweet time.

"dinner" was baddd. ordered prawn noodles, and the prawns were black!!!! i think i hardly touched it, save for some noodle strands. only gd thing was the apple juice, refreshing. plus the lame jokes arnd.

Gemstar blogged on 5/16/2004 12:22:00 AM

venerdì, maggio 14, 2004

eww. the new layout for blogger is so ugly! and the angel/devil pic's gone. screwed la. i gs it's abt time to get a new template!!

gg, running 2mr. hope i can wake up la. it's been ages since i last did tht... haa.

sometimes i wonder what is it that i really enjoy doing??

there was a time when i was interested in everything so i kinda dabbled in all of them...

swimming was a big part of my childhood, had wkly trngs with the guys-nxt-door. =) those were sure fun times... cos we were all so close, we'd just popped by into each other's hse, whenever. gawd. tho i'm pretty sure we made huge nuisances out of ourselves thn. heh... did so many silly things with thm... even tried climbing trees. like errrr. and "exploring" the entire neighbourhood, discovering those lil secret passages. just remembered this inccident when their mum fetched us to lew's condo for trng... thn we were just playing and crawled into the car boot. thn silly ben didn't know how to open the carseat to let us out... so me and bud were like stuck in there for the entire car trip. =/ haa. yea. panicked a lil, cos it was kinda claustrophobic in there. and he was like... "i'm too young to die. aRhhh!" i think i laughed out loud back thn. just seemed pretty funny, the plight we were in. can imagine the relief we felt 1ce his mum opened the boot to free us.

Thn there was this big big slide with many rollers.. the 4 of us wld just sit there, and get a butt massage as we slid dwn..*hiakz* thn we'd go franz forever! tht was friendship thn, pure, simple and true. =)

ha. this entry is tbc. since i'm darn tired.
*muack*

Gemstar blogged on 5/14/2004 10:32:00 PM

domenica, maggio 09, 2004

oh. i almost forgot.
HapPy MothEr's Day....
to all the sweet, loving mums out there. to mine too.
i love u! *muack*
tho i promised my mum i was celebrating officially for her nxt wk.
heh, cos i thought it was nxt wk.

Gemstar blogged on 5/09/2004 10:36:00 PM

Being in nj makes me feel as tho i'm still stuck in some co-ed sec skewl.
and the last co-ed environment was like... erm pri skewl?

Well, continue behaving like lil kids if u like, i understand tht it's a form of destressing for some pple.
but really, don't expect me 2 join in, because err... it ain't exactly my idea of fun.
and yea, don't tell me, if u can't beat them, join them. cos i nvr believed it tht, i'd rather do things at my own pace with my own style. and if you know me well enough, i'm pretty fast.

yea, perhaps i need to loosen up. Maybe there's a lack for physical activity on my part to vent my frustrations. i just get damn restless these days. can't wait to graduate and leave this place behind me.

i think i'll lie low these days. Feels as tho i'm in constant friction with everyone around me.
Nothing i do is right. It doesn't feel too gd waking up all bleary-eyed EVERY morning only to get a huge lecture fr. ur mum. It totally spoils the rest of the day, and heard abt self-fufilling prophecies? It all goes downhill from there. It sucks totally. and u know what, i think i'll get my own place and move out as soon as i can afford it. Saves me from stepping on everyone's toes. Yit, you're welcome to share the apartment with me thn. =D oh yea, becks too. thn u've no worries abt getting thrown out.

as for the ones dear to me, wish i cld shower all u peepz with attention. i wish i cld split myself into many other me-s so i cld spend more time with each and everyone of you. sry to you and you and you, if i ever neglected you. sry if u're hurt/disappointed/pissed/upset with me. It's digusting how i have to cancel my plans each and everytime because of choir practs. So rite now, my life's abt choir and skewl, skewl and choir. The family is ranked somewhere at the bottom, so are the friends and i think my health's somewhere dwn there too? And yea, believe it or not, i made this choice. So yea, i shouldn't be the one complaining should i?

time management time management. i obviously lack the skills. I don't like feeling as tho i have to be doing smth all the time. I get so repulsed by the whole idea, i end up doing nothing at all. NOTHING. okay, maybe a teeny bit. Wish i cld be more constructive. Maybe i shan't phrase it tht way, *takes a deep breath* i'm gonna be more constuctive. and yea, i'm gonna ban myself fr. gg out unless totally necessary.....at least not until i've got myself in order. well, maybe only to mug. how sad. hey huilin, gosh, i'm sry we can't just go out and have fun... so i gs we just hafta settle on mugging outings.

Time's running, the clock's ticking....
Piles and piles, stacks and stacks of notes/bks/files.
My rm's a mess. So is my life.
*haix* i want a hug. =/

Gemstar blogged on 5/09/2004 10:27:00 PM

venerdì, maggio 07, 2004

YOU & I BOTH
words & music by jason mraz

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
And taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing

But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
A little bird who'll sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
What you and I spoke of
Others only dream of the love that I love

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

Now you and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of

and it's okay if you have go away
just remember the telephone works both ways
and if I never ever hear it ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you sang

you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of words.
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getting bored with the song... altho, technically i can't hear anything coming out of my speakers.
something's wrong with thm. =/ erk. i get damn restless w'o my mp3s. *pout*

just love the stanza tht i've italicized. aww *sniffles*
tho... it's really hard to find tht magic once u've drifted away...
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Gemstar blogged on 5/07/2004 11:13:00 PM

lunedì, maggio 03, 2004

Mm I can't believe this *pissed off look* BOTH COMS are down, 2pid viruses! Wonder who r the idiots who sets thm lose. Bleargh.
Typing this on my dad's blackberry, keys r damn tiny. Heh, I'm juz trying to amuse myself here. Lotsa wrk 2 do 2nite, and for once I'm feeling pretty game to tackle thm all at 1 go.

To myself: ganbatte ne

Gemstar blogged on 5/03/2004 07:57:00 PM

sabato, maggio 01, 2004

Well, it's over... tho i felt the entire concert was more of a disappointment than anything else. hmm. the encore shouts fr. the audience felt pretty obliged, how sad. Overall, i think there was no soul in our singing. the year 2 item was a let-dwn, esp since we always sounded really together and much better during the rehearsals.

Somehow felt this sense of... uncertainty in everyone? I'm not sure why, but unlike many prev concerts, this felt pretty unrehearsed. Usually, by concert day, one wld know the programme inside out, and when you're up on stage you can
just enjoy yourself and lose youself in the music...

heh. acc to my franz, i only looked happy dr. the last few songs, lol. oh well.

Don't think it was a 100% effort, like total mind and energy immersed in the performance experience this time, at least on my part.

To those of you who came, thanks, appreciated it. Was the 1st time i received so many bouquets of flowers. and they were all different typEs !! *happy smile* and sry u peepz had to get chased off stage/out of the concert hall after waiting so long. =haix=

in no particular order....

huilin and ky: GirL *big hug* thanKs. what can i say? you've been absolutely and truly supportive all the way!
Ky, for tht i'm-so-proud-of-myself-i-didn't-slp! =triumphant look= heez. sho kewt.. and the lovely cheery sunfloweR.

sY anD dunnoe-his-name : always knew i cld count on him. Promised to ask arnd and he did... bought the circ tics, even tho i offered to treat him. =) thn came with this purple-pink tulip +baby's breath bouqueT (aftr finding out my fave colour, lol) so sweet of him. he enjoyed dayung sampan. Thn his friend was like "i like ye lai xiang" in tht chirpy manner. heh, amusing. they somehow know our grandsnr, spotted thm chatting away.

xm and hassan: bet he was giving live commentary all the way 2 amuse himself, lol... Gosh, but what he said abt us being a still motion picture seriously came true... cos ms chua was like,"they're not moving, not even the scarves are moving when i watch the screen! " aftr watching tht backstage circuit tv. =laughs= another guy who was proud tht he didn't fall aslp.

hey girL u looked chio! thx 2 the both of thm for coming and the bouquet of lovely lilieS. =grin= and i thought u added some funny thing in it to surprise/shock me. *wink* thank your mum for me too. lol. and, awwww. hassan didn't get a hug. he was like *sniff sniff*

KeL and SquiD: hey girL u camE!! yay. haa thx for the orange daisY. Yep, i think u described what i was upset abt pretty accurately, helped me to put things in perspective, thx loTs.

Elisa: hey girL... sry didn't get to talk to u much, b4 we all got chased off the stage by AnG. thx for the roSes, they really smell sweet. yup, and for dragging ur entire squash team alg with ya, lol... *hugz* you always make my day.

ChinG and JoSh : heyheyheY. thx for the support, both of you. Josh was happy tht we sang his song. lol. and yep, the roses are really preTtY !! heh, i think my favourite colour lies somewhere in the spectrum btw their dark pink roses and sy's tulip, lol.

Many of our yr3s came back. Got to chat with candice aftr so long... ! really miss her. she's gg to study in england !!! so zai. heh, she was telling me how much she missed singing in the choir whilst watching our rehearsal, thn she started to kp abt the latest gossip. Pris too... i've been whining to her lots lately, was sooo nice seeing her again. thx lots girl. Really miss the year 3s somehow. Cindy and tammy, GraCe, weNLi all came back!

Gawd. Wasn't feeling too gd acty.... had this head-pounding migraine throughout the day. thn when my mum finally showed up backstage, she kicked up a big fuss when she realized i wasn't gg back with thm. like wth. took all my self-cntrl not to blow up at her. Hmm, cos as it is... i was already feeling damn lousy. Like, give me a break. but u know what, maybe i shld have just gone home. there was nth much to celebrate for anw. and we took AGES just getting to macs. The draggi-ness is totally annoying. i think by the time i reached there, i was totally in sian mode already. Was abt midnight by the time we left, was lucky to get a lift fr Jaime's bf. he's really a nice guy.

oh yea, and thx to bear for the therapy session... heh, tht guy always cheers me up. he's sucha a lil kid at times, tho he claims he isn't. *rolls eyes* all tht nonsense abt squishing frogs =laughs= kla, hope u'll get out of the slum u're in yea? i think somehow, we're all in it by our own choice. i mean, it's easier to wallow in there and tell urself that you can't, thn get out and wrk ur ass off. Must jiayou, so we can really enjoy ourselves in germany! No matter wad, just put in your best efforts k, thn u'll be at peace with urself.

Gemstar blogged on 5/01/2004 09:35:00 PM