cover this shit
martedì, giugno 29, 2004
i'm still alive. yay.
maths was digustingly disgustingly tough. tho i think partly it was because i forgot my basic stuff too, so much for keeping the Os and Fs away. bah. i see ANOTHER one coming.
econs was manageable, cept tht i cldn't write as much as i'd have liked to write, cos i didn't have much content to start off with. =S erk.
4 down, 1 more to gooooo.
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sunset real pretty sight out of my window now, the sky's a lovely tinge of purplish pink. hmm. just caught a glimpse of the metal wordings of the church building near my house and its cross glowing a nice warm orange. It says, "Lutheran Church of our Redeemer" =) just tht , the sun has to be at the correct angle in order for it to be reflected like tht. heh, a lil momment of discovery.
mmf there, it's gone already. kk, dinner awaits.
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Gemstar blogged on 6/29/2004 07:04:00 PM
lunedì, giugno 28, 2004
depression
at the momment, i just feel like giving up on everything.
warh, bio was totally demoralizing. =/
esp since so much time and effort was spent on it, gawd.
history repeating itself.
and i think kph still harbours a grudge agnst me. she didn't have to slam the piece of paper on my table like tht!! yea, i emphasize the word slam, when she didn't do it to the person(s) in front of me. tho, kel got it too. hmm. if i'm gonna get relegated back to her class agn, of which there is a high possibility... i'm calling it quits. i'd prob get higher returns if i invest my time and energies somewhere else.
totally... lost. GP was totally uninspirational too. chose some boring title and only managed to churn out an amazing no. of 2 pts. thn i got so bored with writing tht essay i chose to end it there and then. ~disgusted with myself really. think i stoned more then i actually wrote?
And the cycle repeats itself, this ct is gonna suck so bad. only consolation is tht i'll prob be in germany when the results are out and will be spared from the agony of looking at thm. Denial at its fullest.
2 more disgusting papers tmr. *sobz* 3h math and 3hr plus econs. of which the latter, i'm totally unprepared for... sigh.
Gemstar blogged on 6/28/2004 11:37:00 PM
domenica, giugno 27, 2004
and the clock strikes 12
woohoo. 1 puny day left.
i'm wondering if i shld a)save my econs or b)chem...
cos both are nowhere near completion. =/ boo.
at the momment i'm more inclined towards econs, since i've 1 more day for chem.
ah, opportunity cost. (i have absolute disadvantage in both subjects, and in my own defintion, there's no comparative advantage to speak of, so i've no idea which to pick.)
~okay, i bet noone understood what i'm talking abt, cos i have this sneaky suspicion neither do i myself.
baaaaaaaaaaad feeling for this cts.
weird for me to be this lighthearted, when usually i'd be panicking away?? maybe tht'll come tmr.arg. last cts le. at this rate, i might really hafta end up dropping 1 sub.
wish me luck before all hell breaks loose, peepz.
gdnite, ya'all.
and here's a quote i stole fr. yit's blog.
"Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday." - Anonymous
Gemstar blogged on 6/27/2004 12:06:00 AM
mercoledì, giugno 23, 2004
it's a small worLd aFteR aLL
*shrug* just realized tht they know each other.
paths tht keep criss-crossing, never-ending.
he's changed so much tht i don't recognize him anymore,
and so have i, i think. oh well, tht's life.
i wonder how the lil 1s are doing?
Gemstar blogged on 6/23/2004 02:36:00 AM
martedì, giugno 22, 2004
Don'T DreaM It'S OveR
There is freedom within, there is freedom without
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup
There's a battle ahead, many battles are lost
But you’ll never see the end of the road
While you’re traveling with me
Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it’s over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won’t win
Now I'm towing my car, there's a hole in the roof
My possessions are causing me suspicion but there's no proof
In the paper today tales of war and of waste
But you turn right over to the t.v. page
Now I'm walking again to the beat of a drum
And I'm counting the steps to the door of your heart
Only shadows ahead barely clearing the roof
Get to know the feeling of liberation and relief
Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
Don’t ever let them win
~six pence none the richer
Gemstar blogged on 6/22/2004 01:06:00 AM
lunedì, giugno 21, 2004
juSt one Sh@oRu -give iT 2 me
here's a nice boredom reliever.
The Advertising Slogan Generator
amusing slogans they come up with.check thm out.
in no particular order...
Mama Mia, That'sa One Spicy Sh@oru!
( *cue sound effects* oooOo )
Unzip a Sh@0ru.
(now, wad's tht suppose to mean?)
Maybe She's Born With It, Maybe It's Sh@oru.
( mm yea, how abt...i'm worth it!)
The Loudest Noise Comes From The Electric Sh@oru.
( wahaaa. yea, just turn me on. )
Good Honest Sh@oru Since 1896.
( oh man, they almost got the birth year correct)
laughs. be warned, it makes for great procastinating.
Have a Break. Have a Sh@oRu. =)
Gemstar blogged on 6/21/2004 04:28:00 PM
domenica, giugno 20, 2004
*stretches* i'm getting more nocturnal each day. warh.
just checked the choir olympics site. okayyyy. turns out tht the event is on a much much larger scale thn what i had imagined previously. *shudders* i can almost imagine the tension we'll feel there, competing at an international level? weirdly, i don't see nj in either of the categories we're supposedly competing in, musica sacra and musica contemporonea. someone enlighten me. i see vjc's name there tho, as well as all the other adult choirs. ( who'll no doubt have more mature voices thn us)
musica mundi
celebrated hc's b'day today. =) kk, hoped he was pleasantly surprised? amidst all the card writing and gift-wrapping frenzy. heh, i think the lovely pink wrapping paper(courtesy of bear) was a nice finishing touch =laughs= yep, and it turns out tht both shirts fit the 2 guys fine, i'm glad. hc says it looks cool. yaYy! i've gd taste. (and he agreed to tht, lol) =D
went to swenson's for lunch, the 1 near hello singtel. sat outside alfresco style, cos they didn't have enough seats inside. no aircon =/. quite a gd spot for pple watching i gs. i think most of the time, i was stoning and doing just tht. there was a credit card roadshow nearby, and it was pretty interesting watching their publicity stunts. aha. as well as the silly antics of the other darlings at the table.
this'll probably one of the last few rare momments of freedom(not counting germany?) we'll get to enjoy in the months to come, with the entire clique and all. was kinda relishing the entire experience. heh, i think our 'lunch' ended at 5.
oh yea. HaPPy b'Day Hc! haPpy b'DaY to eDwin!!
Gemstar blogged on 6/20/2004 01:58:00 AM
sabato, giugno 19, 2004
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Stagnant
Watching time wander hourlessly
In a world of circumstantial everything
I pace myself accordingly
Partaking of another day
While a tune floats between my ears
The nights get cold
And I feel the endlessness
Of working next to insomnia
No rest for the wicked
Only a haunted hue of green instead
My imagination runs without a winded breath
I try to keep up
Wondering if I'm destined to fade
And still the tune I hum
Constant lullaby knocking on my door
I try to be the good girl
Who says the right thing
Who looks the right way
Who never screws up
Who wants to be perfect
I don't even like that song
~Chase
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boo. =/ i'm trying. why do i get the feeling tht it'll amt to nth in the end?
stressssssssssed.
Gemstar blogged on 6/19/2004 12:59:00 AM
giovedì, giugno 17, 2004
The Mission
so how tough is it to shop for guys? i found out today. -_-
heh.it wasn't tough acty, more of woW. greeeeAt, another T-shiRt shop. frankly, qte boring la, no wonder most men don't enjoy it.cos in the first place, they have limited options? heh, my dad is the kind who buys a yr's supply of dress shirts/pants/underwear at 1 go so he can avoid the hassle of shopping.
Well, we hav 2 b'day boys this sunday, so we went out for a 'clique' shopping trip for a present. how wonderful, only me and jy were there @ 2. i kinda expected it acty, the rest weren't able to make it for 1 reason or another. becks joined us a lil later, and we trawled the (almost-non-existent-but-if-u-care-to-look-it's-there) shops catering to the male population in FEP. Found some pretty cool shops, i mean if i were a guy, it'd be stuff i'd buy, lol. My personal fave was this shop tht had 'in-your-face' kinda statements/designs on their t-shirts.. some were quirky, some were really naughty, some were just plain rude. hiakz.
our only male erm consultant din turN up ! ok, fine he had his ns med check-up. hmF. and i was wondering how looong ur psychomet test took ?? tsk. i mean the b'day guys r ur buddies marh, and yea we don't hang out with thm enough to know wad their taste is like??
no worries, we didn't get anything pink or purple. (i was really tempted to, but i gs not practical la.)Tho lately i've seen qte a few guys arnd wearing pink tshirts, and i gotta admit they look pretty gd in them. but yea, u've got to be able to carry it off w'o looking like a sissy.
kk. just hope we got the sizes rite. the designs are fine, nth loud or shocking (to be on the safe side) and yea. someone settle the cake pls, if there's gg to be 1 in the first place.
Question of the daY (for the guYs): Wld u willingly wear a pink t-shirT?
Gemstar blogged on 6/17/2004 09:45:00 PM
lunedì, giugno 14, 2004
the singaporean touriSt
was mildly annoyed today. very much wanted to catch the afternn sun so i cld tan a lil... but yea, noone-else wanted leave the hse tht early. So i upped and went to my ahmah's place on my own.
grin. how liberating. it was just me in berms and this hole-ly top,backpack, slippers and... kenny. heh. i pretended i was this backpacker touring across some foreign land.
funn. =) 1 gd thing abt singapore, it's pretty much impossible to get lost here. too darn small for u to.
know how u always take a certain bus route, just because? it's like this familiar routine tht u settle urself into, day in day out, u just do it... mindlessly, without thinking. i gs i was acty abt to just take the bus tht i'd usually take, cept tht... i think i was daydreaming, viewing the scenery outside the bus window thru orchard, chijmes, various eateries and yadda thru tourist eyes. i was seeing them fr. a different perspective, for the first time. came to the conclusion tht, singapore's pretty much a fab place to live in? every town has its own distinct style and character... and there are cool places to chillout, if u know where to look for them. oh. yea and the gastronomical delights. all conveniently located arnd on this dunno-how-much km2 piece of land.
and what kills us fr. really appreciating/ enjoying what this place has to offer?? the education system,all tht unhealthy kiasu-ism ... the hectic lifestyle, wrking ur ass off just own tht HDB/car/hse.. face it, costs of living are high here. have 2 slog just to attain a decent lifestyle.
yeP. now for the anticlimax. i missed my bus-stop. so i had fun exploring abt while i located one i cld take a bus fr. hmm, enjoyed myself nonetheless, and got to my destination in the end.
upon reaching realized, a)not much sun left. b)2 piece ain't for swimming. no no.
*shrug* it's like.... trying to ride a bicycle when u're wearing a mini-skirt.
ha. u get the picture. =)
Gemstar blogged on 6/14/2004 12:43:00 AM
domenica, giugno 13, 2004
oops, i killed a chicken durian
am still wide awake at this unearthly hr. hungry lil me deicided to forage for food in the fridge, and was pleasantly surprised to see 2 mini cake boxes in there. 1 held 2 slices of cake, the other a chicken pie.
sr decides on the chicken pie, and proceeds to the microwave happily. "ooh, now i'll get piping hot chicken pie" *drools at the thought*
OnlY to discover, to her dismay, that the chicken pie was not what she thought it was.
It was actually durian custard crumble = dessert = meant to be consumed CoLd.
=/
*makes mental note to go swimming tmr*
Gemstar blogged on 6/13/2004 01:34:00 AM
giovedì, giugno 10, 2004
~summeR SunShine
I feel it's changing, I stay the same
I'm... the solo cello outside a chor-us
I've got a secret,
It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm
Just sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?
You tell me you have to go...
[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
Now that you've left me, there's no retur-ning
I keep comparing, you're always win-ning
I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted
Will you make me at home?
Don't tell me you have to go...
[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know
Ya da... ya da... ya da
To sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back
Winter is coming and I need to stay warm
The heat.....
Gemstar blogged on 6/10/2004 10:22:00 PM
martedì, giugno 08, 2004
thoughts
seems as tho all i wanna do is play. been doing tht lots... so much so when i'm alone @ hme i can't focus. =( so i either a) slp lots or b) go online. like what's new? i go thru this procrastination/guilt cycle b4 every major test.
am feeling the heat. my parents nvr cease to remind me tht since i'm gg germany, i shld be wrking 4 it. and now they're telling me they wanna go new zealand aftr As... which is supposedly another incentive for me 2 wrk towards?!
okay. i'm lucky 2 get the chance to travel in the first place. so what the hell am i whining abt? =/
but. argz.
Gemstar blogged on 6/08/2004 11:22:00 PM
sabato, giugno 05, 2004
whoa. another super long day today =breathes a sigh of relief= glad that i've survived the entire wk extra lessons+ choir pracs. spent a loooooooooong time in orchard today, and becky got herself this lovely skirt tht she had been eyeing for qte some time slready. stopped @ paragon and had dinner @ nooch. *thumbs up* i had japanese pan fried noodles... real gd. to think i used to avoid the place cos i thought they were 1 of those high-end restaurants tht served minute portions!! =) mmf. thn we walked all the way to orchard point.sad thing was, i didn't manage to buy anything in the end. heh, wanted to get this really nice dress i saw at far east, but it's kinda wayy off budget, am still considering. and itching to get one of those below *points* heh... so i'll get a more even tan when i swim.ha. tho i'll hafta tone up first... might as well take the chance to exercise more whilst it's still the hols rite.
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heh.. thx to becKy for the compAnY. =) we sure walked loong distances!
sigh. let the mugging begin too. =( somebody save me.
Gemstar blogged on 6/05/2004 09:30:00 PM
venerdì, giugno 04, 2004
this enzyme only works under optimal conditions.
mm. tht refers to me. warh, i screwed the chem pract today. was in a daze, i think.
mmhmm.just glad i survived today. didn't slp much last nite... yep, and to those who were trying to make me feel better. thx. =)
thru the window pane
Rainy weather's perfect for stoning on the bed. also, if u're in the car @ nite whilst it's pouring outside. (when someone's doing the driving , of course.)
i'll just space out and be fascinated by the sight of the rain pelting against the windscreen... like a thousand little feet slipping, uncaring, down the glass, only to be swished aside by the automatic wiper blades. Through the window,the red-green- yellow-white of the traffic lights, streetlights and illuminated office buildings become kaleidoscopic swirls of colour, magically distorted by the water streaming dwn. And i am content sitting there, lost in my thoughts.
Gemstar blogged on 6/04/2004 09:39:00 PM
martedì, giugno 01, 2004
attended the acjc choir concert last night. they were damn gd. had the clean sound, the blend, the musicality.. whilst listening to their female voices, i was picturing smooth, flowy, liquid honey in my mind. i think it's true, compared to them, we really have a looooong way to go. the entire concert wasn't able to sustain my attn for long tho...mostly sacred pieces, i became -_- aftr the 5th song. which makes me wonder why aren't they gg for the olympics this yr? ah. whatever the outcome for us, it's all for the experience yea? tho we really hafta wrk on it now.
went to satay club for supper aftr tht... and the jnrs joined us. tht was the first time really, considering how we always kept to ourselves. =D atmosphere was pretty gd, had a phototaking frenzy, thn a harrowing time running for the last train. got scolded by my dad for hanging out too late. =/ he's paranoid of me hailing cabs tht late at nite. hmm. tho the probability of me getting kidnapped by wayward cabbies in s'pore follows this distribution: X~poi(0.0000000001). *angelic smile*
(sho kewt, they look like neoprints, aha)
went hme, uploaded the photos... tweaked thm.. and promptly went 2 bed @ 2. =/
disgusted with the lack of discipline on my part. needless to say, had a headache when i woke up @ an unearthly hr of 730 this morn. popped a pill, and went back to slp. the nxt time i was concious, it was erm... 12.30. missed another choir pract, and neither am i gg for the chem lect...
Gemstar blogged on 6/01/2004 01:33:00 PM
