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martedì, maggio 31, 2005

VoLatiLe

oh @#$%^&*(*&^%$ ! BEWARE. i'm like, highly irritable these days. I feel like an emotional wreck, am resisting this intense urge to... cry. The other day i did, and the tears cldn't stop flowing, i so refuse to go thru all that all over agn. WTF is wrong with me manz? No way has it ever been like this before, such horrible mood swings, maybe i'm gg thru a 2nd round of puberty. Like eww, i'm having nasty breakouts which i haven't had in eons.

or maybe i shall attribute it to PMS --> do refer to kennysia's hilarious take on it. which isn't likely cos my period just ended?! maybe the "p" stands for "Post" instead of "Pre".

or maybe...
aha.
today's cosmic calander says : Moon-Mars union (2:40AM PDT) -- a time of potential emotional fireworks and volatility...

i so blame the stars.

Gemstar blogged on 5/31/2005 11:34:00 PM

domenica, maggio 29, 2005

sigh

Gemstar blogged on 5/29/2005 03:31:00 PM

sabato, maggio 28, 2005

jinXed.

okay. i admit that i've never been particularly superstitious, but i do enjoy reading my horoscope for the fun of it.

anyway mine read " be prepared for any change in plans today. hang in there and try to enjoy the ride." or something or the other.

hmmph. so much for change in plans, our venue for the buffet was changed for a million times b4 it was called off. Funny thing was, everyone was WILLING and ABLE to go.. at least 6 of us were la, just the guys plus me and xw. I can't remember why it's called off already.

jinxed, i tell ya.

afternote:
oh yea, we (me and shaun)kinda decided tht lunch wld be cheaper, so it's postponed to tmr instd.

Gemstar blogged on 5/28/2005 05:25:00 PM

giovedì, maggio 19, 2005

by the bathtub. lol.

Gemstar blogged on 5/19/2005 12:11:00 AM

domenica, maggio 15, 2005

Blog-stipation

i'm suffering from a case of that now, plus a severe bout of laziness. i suppose i'm the sort that the busier i get, the more i want to blog? Now that i have all the time of the world, i dun feel like writing anything at all. pffffffffft. =p

so what's up folks? bumming around for me is getting really comfortable. the highlight of my days are usually driving lessons. i hereby declare that i can steer properly, but i have a tendency to speed and make dangerous turns. *evil grin* i only have 3,4 lessons left b4 i run out of slots to book! how terribly annoying, bbdc's june and july slots are already fully booked!!! can you believe it. how am i ever going to get my license b4 uni if that's the case.

other thn that i read, watch the telly, swam, played tennis, pubbed, bbq-ed, sentosa-ed, ikea-ed, movie-ed, attended tjc's and vjc's choir concerts, did volunteer work with yc and hung out with other fellow bummers to while my time. Funny how my social circle has widened in the midst of my boredom. Been getting to know qte alot of pple, like friends of friends', colleagues of friends', even army buddies of friends', cos my own darlings are too busy to ask me out anyway. abandoned girl, i am. ask me out, you must!!! *grin* NOo, i haven't watched star wars and dun intend to. meeting new pple is fun and all, but all i wanna do is see those busy toots more often! -_-

yea, it sure sounds like fun and sunshine all the time. don't be envious until u're really in my position, the nothingness and pointlessness of things get to you sometimes. nevertheless i'm doing my best to enjoy everyday, for the benefit of those who aren't free to do so. muaha.

will be gg for a b/f dinner with the choir gang on sat. hope it works out. missing them to bits! heard the guys have lost lotsa weight, poor dears.

spent the whole of today trying to figure out how to use Wordpress. I wanna shift blog and start running my own online shop!! So expect something new and exciting soon! that is, once i figure how to get things down pat. such a hassle though. argh. anyone able to help me out with wordpress???

Every now and thn you meet someone who's sweet, thoughtful , and really goes the extra mile for you. hmmmmmmmmmm, i wonder. but aiya, *shrug* who knows where this will lead me to? can't be bothered to read into matters, anyhow. too tiring.

oh, and the verdict's out. i didn't get into law, was offered pharmacy instd. am wondering why the hell i'm taking so looooooooong to come to a decision, this is so agonizing! argh. the big one up there, pls give me a sign, a vision, an epiphany, anything. will it be SMU's business... or NTU's biomed... or *gasP* noooooo. NUS's pharm ?? or... neither of the above? i have half a mind to reject all offers and work myself overseas.

Gemstar blogged on 5/15/2005 02:15:00 AM

mercoledì, maggio 11, 2005

crystal clarity

it's amazing how a short walk can clear my mind. i refuse to torment myself anymore!!!! was going thru a personal rough patch. Beginning to see things in a new light, once i extricate myself out of the situation(s) and look at everything objectively, kinda realized that i am the root cause of my unhappiness? aha. tricky one, that. Just dump out all the emotional baggage, and i'm as gd as new- tadaa.

which reminds me. i nd to clean out my rm.

Gemstar blogged on 5/11/2005 01:19:00 AM

sabato, maggio 07, 2005

What's YouR StoRy?

spinning, falling.
mindless decadence.
day after day, just
whittling time away.

fluttering, social butterfly.
self-deceit.
you only have your shadow by your side.

who after drinking the sweet wine of heaven can willingly drink the dust of a dry riverbed?

i thirst.

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*disclaimer* the last 2 lines are not mine. they're xuan's

to you: i can feel your pain.
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Gemstar blogged on 5/07/2005 03:59:00 PM

domenica, maggio 01, 2005

Never Saw Stars Like That

Okay so the essay test i was fretting for is done and over with too. it certainly was different, like piecing a puzzle together with all these jig-saw pieces. interesting, and challenging. I'm just cringing at the way i wrote though. My thoughts were horribly disorganized, and i didn't link them properly. *sniffles* At the momment i'm suffering somewhat from an inferiority complex, am pretty disappointed in myself. I suppose for me, i'm more upset cos i didn't do the job well, rather than cos it'll affect my chances of getting in. I take pride in my wrk la, and tht was a sucky piece.

On the lighter side, it was heartwarming meeting up with the rest of the choir pple again. It pretty much became a bass outing plus me, tammy, jy, xw, becks and grace. real nice seeing the snrs after soooo long. mmhmm. i suppose it will be tough finding another bunch of pple i'll feel so at ease and relaxed with. We went to this really dark jetty, the whole big grp of us. They drank their beer while we just sat arnd and chilled. For the first time in my life, i saw the stars in their full splendour. Lovely wind-down session, to a harried wk. =)
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Today I took a walk up the street
And picked a flower and climbed the hill
Above the lake

And secret thoughts were said aloud
We watched the faces in the clouds
Until the clouds had blown away

And were we ever somewhere else
You know, it's hard to say

And I never saw blue like that before
Across the sky
Around the world
You've given me all you have and more
And no one else has ever shown me how
To see the world the way I see it now
Oh, I, I never saw blue like that

~ Never Saw Blue Like That, Shawn Colvin

Gemstar blogged on 5/01/2005 01:08:00 AM