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venerdì, novembre 25, 2005

tears and rain

aaaaaah crap. tdy's like the most miserable of days. well. basically been spending ALOTA time in soa gsr 2.7 the past few days... sigh. well got some stuff done, which wasn't too bad overall, but still lotsa chapts NOT COVERED YET. argh

today's totally off man. woke up feeling really lousy. thn forced myself to go schl, cos we were gg to have consultation with the MA prof. so from tht session till now... i haven't got a single thing done yet !!!!!! well started on the MA paper, but got so pissed with it tht i didnt go pass the 1st question.

my concentration span's the size of an ant, and i nd to take MANY breaks in between before i do acty get something done, but 1ce i'm in the zone... yea man. tdy just plain SUCKS la. i got so frustrated tht i was practically tearing at 1 point in time... and i've kinda stopped talking to the other 2 guys in the rm, i miss serene!!! i think i concentrate better when she's around.

sniffles. now i'm content to sit ard feeling sry for myself.. which is what i'm doing.. and just waiting for my dad to come pick me up i guess. sibei sian. wished i had just gone home and took a nap instead, wld've felt much better.

okay tht's my whineee. so sad. hafta whine into my com, can't even whine to them cos i dun wanna disturb thm. yep my lao-ba's the best la. just talking nonsense with him now, partially cheered up.

Gemstar blogged on 11/25/2005 07:31:00 PM

martedì, novembre 22, 2005

starry night
quietly
the starlight glows

momments shared
not long ago

so true so long
mmmm

the stars above
your nearness grows

night so deep
mmmm
sparkling dazzling
the stars and us alone

really simple lyrics, but love it. my latest song craving, could not find it anywhere though, maybe it was written specially for the ad. yup, that's song from the latest soo kee commercial for... diamonds *bling bling* this one features a loving couple dipped in a rock pool, under a whole blanketful of stars... a lil boy and lil girl lying down and star gazing in a golden wheat field . absolutely lovely "cinematography", wonder where they shot the scenes from. here's the link to the ad, for your viewing pleasure.
starry night

if you can recall, their previous ad on tv was " daddy's girl". this one somehow got me teary-eyed watching it. It's charming how they portray the act of buying something into a sweet, warmly intimate, moving experience. it's all in the marketing eh. but we're all suckers for it anyway.

geez. makes me wanna go get 1 of those blinkers too.

altho... i've to admit that... i wanna be the lil girl star gazing in the
wheatfield, or the lady skinny-dipping with her guy. =p

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NB: okay read it in an article on Today, the ad's shot in iceland!!! Land of ice and fire. so i guess the pool they were dipped in was geothermally warm. how.. nice =) AND the song was specially comissioned for the ad, by an australian singer. and here's elmo's link:
THE elusive song

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Gemstar blogged on 11/22/2005 11:00:00 PM

domenica, novembre 20, 2005

smile empty soul

no mood la. think its the time of the month again. sian. and now hafta mug for finals summore. boohoo.

heh cheap thrills, was fun at the loreal warehouse sale at expo just now!! think we were in makeup wonderland or something. me and cuz went mad, see everything, just whack la !! but i couldn't find the blusher, which was what i intended to buy -_-. came back with everything else instead: gloss, eyeshadow, mascara, brow pencil, nail polish, liquid foundation...cos everything was gg at 4 or 5 at 20 bucks!!! when the initial price wld be ard at least 15bucks per item. "A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he wants. A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't want." How TRUE. its not as though i wear makeup frequently anyway. just thought it'd be fun to experiment. =p oh there was a sexpo going on too! but the tix were at blardy 15bucks per person, wld've popped in for fun if not for the erm high barrier to entry.

yup, then was super late for the clique's meetup at holland v. expo's darn far la. i trained down to orchard (40 mins), then cabbed dwn to holland v. think my trnspt cost was ard 12-15 bucks in total tdy.

well, they had lunch at holland v, then we shifted ourselves to essential brew to nua. today was a totally relaxingly boring outing, tho perhaps the guys welcomed the respite after their erm tiring ns stunts. but both me and becks want exercise!!! argh. we were playing and amusing ourselves with the jasmine tea. heh, funny. not. sigh. oh and shaun got all of us prezzies from taiwan !! =) how sweet. i'm pretty enamoured by mine. think jh had the most silly-looking one, but it really suits him. =p yup so we just nuah-ed our time away against those comfy cushions. sigh and when we're finally free and able to go out, the boys will be training the recruits. seems to me tht it'd be qte sian this christmas. boohoo. ANOTHER stayover? Sentosa?
BEEN THERE DONE THAT. chaleting/ hotelling also, with those overseas trips.

heh shaun was so ambitious summore, like wanted to plan a US, aus... trip after they ORD. so far away lor and they wanted me to organize. MAD ar. i nd to start saving up and/or find some wrk to do. can't wait till when THEY learn driving though. hahah. sigh i'm sucha a lousy driver i dun feel safe in my own car, so i can't fetch anyone ard as yet !!! boo.

when girl, just when ?? funny how/why everyone asks me the same question. it gets mildy annoying trying to explain yourself, you just give up. and i've to overcome the heavy inertia that strikes me each time any exam roll by. help !!!!!!! 1 wk left only, and i'm in serious DENIAL.okay everyone, FORCE me to mug. 3 subjects all in 1 wk, reminscent of those jc days where i had papers back to back, 1 per day and everything wld've ended by wednesday... the results were disastrous,Ds and Es and Os. but yet i somehow manage for the last lap. not gd enough tho, and there's always that niggling thought at the back of your head that it would've been better, if just a little more effort was put in.

oh well, i'll get there, somehow. okay 3 words to myself... FOCUS, PERSERVERE and MUG.

Gemstar blogged on 11/20/2005 07:06:00 PM

许愿

我喜欢回味记忆的美让人懂得感谢
你现在让谁听你喜悦陪你掉眼泪

嘿好久不见
请你许个愿
要感情不再那么容易变
让心不被距离拉得太遥远

我寄了张卡片
地址是感觉收件人叫永远
像是你又递来一杯热咖啡
生活有了你的温柔调味

我寄了张卡片
画你的笑脸写祝福的留言
请把我的名字默念一百遍
好梦就会趁你睡醒实现

我习惯感觉记忆的美能让温柔不灭
你现在让谁吻你的脸疼你的一切
嘿好久不见
请你许个愿
要感情不再那么容易变
让心不被距离拉得太遥远

我寄了张卡片
地址是感觉收件人叫永远
像是你又递来一杯热咖啡
生活有了你的温柔调味

我寄了张卡片
画你的笑脸写祝福的留言
请把我的名字默念一百遍
好梦就会趁你睡醒实现
请把我的名字默念一百遍
好梦就会趁你睡醒实现

sweet song. realized its been qte a long time since i last listened to chinese pop.
heh. dun u just miss those zhou jie lun days?

Gemstar blogged on 11/20/2005 01:36:00 AM

sabato, novembre 19, 2005

starry nite

what stars? i kinda looked up from the amphitheater and realized that it was sheltered, though the whole place is open air, nevertheless. but the entire concert overall was definitely enjoyable...with credits especially to the 3rd band for revving the atmosphere up. the guy was totally action-packed... lol. cool !!! they should do such stuff more often... i'll definitely wanna go agn. =)

mmm. female vocalists for the jazz bands were pretty strong, my favourite was the lead singer for the 2nd band. she's good, naturally expressive and can hit those higher notes with a style of her own. though sometimes pretty airy, which made certain parts pretty weak. OkaY enough of critique, not as though i'm anywhere near her standards. that kinda vocals is something i still can't get and prob nver get, cos of my lousy support.haix. demoralizing.

then The Ocean Band! only paid special attention to them cos uday mentioned tht they were the ones who did the opening gig for hoobastank last year, so was curious as to how they'd sound. whoa the lead singer is damn zai, and so's the backup cum drummer who did the harmonizing. due to techinical difficulties, they kinda made do for a short while on unplugged, and his voice was woah. tht kind tht'll melt you to sleep, if he were to sing a lullaby. mmhmm. annoying thing is i dunno wad songs they were! anyone? pity jh wasn't there to watch, he'd so enjoy the whole thing. i think.

yup. and its always nice to hear your ever-so-familiar favourite covers of songs, fr. maroon5's this love, hoobastank's the reason, james blunt's you're beautiful, incubus's drive... to name a few. i suck at song names.

well. thing was. it got qte complicated with different grps of friends, cos everyone wanted to go!! and i guess it was a lil awkward for those who didn't alr know my other friends. tough trying to divide attn to each grp... really felt qte bad
esp to ros, think she was pretty left out at times. Cldn't host becks properly either. at least zoe had yl. jy was alrite with everyone, i think. though he prob wasn't in much of a mood with 37hrs of no slp as he puts it. thx for everything tho, and felix too , who insisted on camping out in the gsr , lol... he's always so nice to wait with us. heh...

argh. bottomline is. nvr anyhow chap your friends together, something always happens when i try it. but i never learn, do i?

Gemstar blogged on 11/19/2005 12:33:00 AM

mercoledì, novembre 16, 2005

season's greetings
this new layout has been proudly brought to you by sr !! haaahaha, find the background pict familiar??? cos, its taken FROM MY ROOM. =) aye, just trying to get into the christmassy mood you know. the "tree"'s been there since the sleepover last year with the clique, too darn lazy to take it dwn and xmas is rolling by again~

OkaY. i'm procrastinating again. spent the entire day 1)sleeping, 2)swedish meatballs 3)revamping my blog template 4)sleeping summore.

oh the trip to ikea was a traumatizing experience, cos i parked the car such that the side was kissing the pillar, kenna scratched. and the worst thing is, there wasn't anyway you could reverse directly out, cos the side mirror would've broken off if we forced it. i'm amazed at myself sometimes, luckily there was a kind passerby who helped manouvre it out. *phew* inspected the "damage" just a tiny scratch of paint off near the car door.

all's well ends well.erm. i think.

Gemstar blogged on 11/16/2005 11:10:00 PM

martedì, novembre 15, 2005

Blog Things.
You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty.
At work and school, you do best when you're researching.
When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often.

In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.
Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.
You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.
The Birth Order Predictor

Your Birthdate: January 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame.
You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them.
Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing.
You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship.

Your strength: Your charm

Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics

Your power color: Indigo

Your power symbol: Four leaf clover

Your power month: December
What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

muahaha. see??! i'm destined for great stuff. =p
ok ok. when you're too free you start doing silly blogthings. i absolutely can't get enough of 'em, when i've nothing better to do i mean.

I CLEARED ALL MY PRESENTATIONS !!!! and project reports too, many thanks to my highly resourceful and industrious groupmates... i feel fortunate, it has been wonderful working with them. ray, shan, gayle for bgs... debs, lis, rh and winny for the debates and joyce, cyn, jan, marce for b-law. i think i was especially relieved after the debates, cos 1) it was my last presentation 2)it really went well and was highly entertaining, all of us enjoyed ourselves doing it. To think i was really fretting over my speech the night before cos it was a whole load of bullshit. The audience just had a great time laughing at what i said. =x 1 thing's for sure though, both teams have great camaraderie and it showed.

So... before you know it, the end of the sem has come, and its time to bid goodbye to the classmates and profs you've grown to know and like for this 13 weeks. how sad!! i'll really miss this class, and it'll be a whole new set of faces and people next sem. sigh. No wonder they say you don't really make close friends in uni. Just as you've started getting used to and know the pple, it's time to say gdbye to them.

well well. time to settle down and start mugging for finals i guess, but just let me savour these few days of freedom.

Thanks to those who gave me sunshine when i was feeling down. I felt your warmth.

Gemstar blogged on 11/15/2005 09:59:00 PM

sabato, novembre 12, 2005

current status

aha. i apologize, the title's like zhi2 ye4 bing4, 1 of the parts i presented for my project today. sigh smoo is like sucha big part of my life, so much so i've had a 7 day wk. YES. i'm gg back tomorrow again. on a SUNDAY no less.

damn. not much updates except the presentations i've cleared. reports need more tweaking, writing, editing before they can be handed in. where's my life!!!
joy was tht our efforts paid off, the class actually liked our presentation!! and there we were so wor

anyway... christmas is in the air. tralala. so pretty seeing the decorative night-lights twinkling at you along the streets at night. the last time i did so... just strolling along and taking in everything, and appreciating every tiny detail, is but a distant memory. though those christmas-es were fine, i suppose, cos i was always surrounded by friends, family, loved ones.

well well. i swear, i'm just abt to turn into my emotionally cold and inhibited capricorn self. i need to take a slow walk on life, and re-ignite that passion. zoe's "squandering youth" nick tag got to me. just what are we doing man?! the glorious age of youth and we still AREN'T having the times of our lives. i want to go on an adventure !!!!!!!!! As though we'd have the opportunity to do so the momment we step out into society. i'm soo gonna ENJOY my holidays man.

KL trip in the pipeline with the OG. i'm really happy that they're even considering for us to go together i suppose, it's really nice to see that hey, we're still close after all this time, tho everyone's in different classes and all.

and you know what. we're all tired. i'm tired. my patience has run out. though i really really wonder... sometimes. nevermind i'm just talking to myself now. haahah. don't think i'll understand this part when i look at it again a few days later.

right now... missing the clique i guess. heh. like whenever i'm free i wish i can hangout with them. these days i get so busy i forget that we even exist anymore. how's everyone doing???????????? hellooooo. anyone there there there there? *echoes echoes echoes* i suppose not. anyway shaun bought us prezzies back from taiwan ! heh i'm amused, cos if i recall the 1st thing he said to me when he got back was... "i'm broke from all that shopping! " heh, that's soo him la.

oh. and congrats to ching and josh on your 2nd anniversary. "i bless you both with happiness! " heh. so cute the both of them, always share their joy with all their friends. anyway i think it was ching who msged, and josh who replied. thanks ar. and i dunno who is who cos i lost my phone back thn, and their numbers are gone. if you're even reading this... hey, why lyddat !

oh and i finally got that bright, clear sound during vocal class! amazing, like all the funny stuff he asks me to do actually wrked. like eh 1 momment cannot, the nxt, it just comes... naturally. scary. as though you can turn on the switch as and when you want, but i can't, not yet anyway. now to apply the technique to when you're actually singing a song... herm.

song playing in my mind at the momment. these days, the strains of the melody from lonesome road keep playing in my head, and i suspect it's the alto part summmore. hahah! damn. miss choir ! but don't feel like carolling with the alumni leh, somehow. just feel pretty detatched from them. Let me soar on the wings of music. okay tht phrase just popped outta my mind from nowhere. anyway. when i finally looked at the lyrics,it just struck me how... forlorn it is, and that fortitude to pick yourself up and carry on, not look back...

Lonesome Road ~Dixie Chicks
Walk down that lonesome road all by yourself
Don't turn your head back over your shoulder
And only stop to rest yourself when the silver moon
Is shining high above the trees

If I had stopped to listen once or twice
If I had closed my mouth and opened my eyes
If I had cooled my head and warmed my heart
I'd not be on this road tonight

Carry on
Never run sorry for yourself
It doesn't save you from your troubled mind

Walk down that lonesome road all by yourself
Don't turn your head back over your shoulder
And only stop to rest yourself when the silver moon
Is shining high above the trees

Gemstar blogged on 11/12/2005 11:17:00 PM

sabato, novembre 05, 2005

SOS

1) ~~MA report~~, sunday night
2) ~~Biz Law presentation~~ and Assgmt, Thurday
3) BGS report and ~~Presentation~~, Saturday
4) AS debates, Monday.

dead. ok this wkend has to be fruitfully spent, by hook or by crook. i swear.

when EVERYTHING goes wrong
sigh, stress levels these days have been at the max, find myself pretty tensed up, and i've noticed myself unconsciously clenching my fist when i'm attempting to fall asleep. muscles aching. i need a swim to destress, speaking of which, i've decided i shall visit the swimming pool at least 1ce a week. Realized it really helps me to relax and unwind. well well, some pple turn to booze, others turn to drugs, or sex ..kinda reminded me of sth jm said abt him gg clubbing to destress..."it's the only time i feel human." i don't really agree,i mean the human bit, tht's just a tad too extreme, but yea... i get where he's coming from... it's just a temporal escape, and i guess we all need those every now and then, and we all do it differently. Find myself craving for alcohol these days too, tho i don't binge la, just 1 or 2's enough to send me on a floaty high and i think tht shan's buddy yk puts it best, " i want my happy soda!"

and so i've just narrated my day's episode to my "lao ba". *disclaimer* he adopted me, not the other way round. thankfully glad he's ard these days, he listens, and encourages me alg... tho we're essentially or were essentially strangers that don't exactly have to bother/care abt each other. but i guess it's friends like these tht are all the more precious to me. well the gist of it was, the marketing video clip aka pride,joy, tears, sweat of me and my sis showcasing our business idea screwed up during my presentation. was bloody awkward, unprofessional and embarrassing trying to get the sound to wrk, in front of the class, in the MIDST of my presentation. sigh. that was supposed to be the cherry on top of the icing, for our presentation, and it failed miserably. ended up playing the final edited version from the movie-maker, without the soundtrack... and it pretty much lost its appeal. Lessons learnt from today's experience = REHEARSALS with the LAPTOP projected onto the SCREEN now is compulsory. and really, at the end of it all, i realized what a tech idiot i was, guess i was too reliant on the guys in the past to help me out with such stuff.

thn i lost my matric card and was pretty much freaking out, thankfully zoe was ard at tht time to somewhat calm me dwn. and the security guard uncle was qte amusing, withholding the card from me... heh. lucky. someone returned it for me, left it behind in the toilet. =x

thn rushed out a half-hearted AS assignment, during biz law. and handed it in damn late. sigh. totally had 0 idea of what went on in class today. stayed on after to do the usual wait before i headed off to bugis for my vocal class, but yq cancelled on us, AGAIN. sigh. okay its true tht we students cancel classes last minute too, but at least we make sure tht there's someone there to pass the msg, like at least a classmate or 2 will be taking the lesson, so its not as though he's there waiting for us in vain. perhaps justifiable that he's sick la, tho he cld inform us a day in advance at least? so we can make alternative plans or sth.

Hermit Crab

I've been bad. =/ oh dear, i'm sorta turning into a person i hate. okay... punctuality for one, is a virtue i really believe in, or used to believe in and try my best to adhere to. it is, to me, showing respect for other people's time. and that should still be the case. i guess all the proj meetings so far showed me how, esp when i've friends who schedule their meetings back to back... nth substantial gets done cos most of the time we end up waiting for each other, thn by the time someone arrives, someone has to go. granted, not all have to be there at all times. well, somehow, my allowance of 15mins max late has evolved to 1/2 hour... 1 hour even 2 hours ! sincerely apologize to those i've kept waiting... though lately, haha i'm trying my best, really and i guess its working somewhat.

okay well, the other thing is ps-ing my friends. i've done that qte a few times lately. tonight prob takes the worst out of the lot. was supposed to go clubbing with the og initially, cos it was sharon's bday... but after sucha disgusting day, was really half-dead and totally not in the mood. and i was admittedly pretty grouchy cos i clocked in a grand total of 3hours plus of slp last nite. well, i turned up as promised cos i did say i will, but disappointed the rest when i told them i wldnt be joining them afterall. well, me and serene both tht is... which effectively left sharon with the rest of the guys. hanging out with them makes me laugh like no tomorrow, hahah reminds me of the times with the choir clique.... they just enjoy engaging in verbal wars, and lately we've been putting AS into good use, attacking every statement as fallacies. the crap we come up with, honestly. so we gave sharon her present, and went gelare to cut her cake with her. okay admittedly everyone was really looking forward to clubbing tnt, esp aaron. he was all dressed up and geared up to go. but yea. i feel pretty horrible for spoiling their plans. and honestly if i were in their position, i'd be DEAD PISSED. gosh. i hate myself sometimes, it really is easy for me to let my cirumstances get the better of me and just sink into tht rut. but like i said, not enough slp = no mood = everything screws up, always happens to me, those close to me wld've experienced it. felt weird heading home early, but glad to... just... chill and do nth and just blog abt it. and the guys were really sweet i felt, like "organizing" this bday celebration and all... no dbt they love doing lotsa nonsense stuff and "bully" us but yea, when i msged to apologize they were pretty much reassuring...

zw's nagging me to slp early now.
ah! i resolve to be a better person.

and if you've read here. wow. seriously. i'm impressed, this is prob my most incoherent, postful of rants.

Gemstar blogged on 11/05/2005 12:18:00 AM