'oppose monotony, support diversity oppose inhibition, support wild passion oppose unanimity, support hierarchy oppose spinach, support snails in their shells.' - Salvador Dali
*smiles* i honestly don't quite know how the last line fits in, but all these artist types, so dreamy and vivid in their imaginations, so ubridled and unfettered by the ways of the world, so decadent, so wasted, so eccentric, so absolutely positively enigmatic and sexy.
while we normal people secretly yearn to be as unihibited as them.
Gemstar blogged on 12/29/2005 01:34:00 AM
lunedì, dicembre 26, 2005
spin
well. and tht spells the end of xmas, and let's just say, i tried, we tried. tired of doing so already. but last night was pretty disappointing cos i really left for home feeling totally unsatisfied. the music at the balcony was trance la, which so totally didn't appeal to me, plus the cover charge. hmm. since when was there one? orchard was so crowded, it was mildly claustrophbic. perhaps we should've just stayed in, it was more fun slacking ard in my room chatting.
on a brighter note, the beef roll recipe tht my lao ba imparted to me was quite a hit with my family, even though i suspect my friends didn't really appreciate it. my grandma especially, kept asking how we made it, and that's gd enough for me. cos she's THE chef of my family. but it wasn't anything too difficult, mainly it was the freshness and quality of the ingredients that mattered, aka the beef tenderloin. so we had our dinner in the garden which was kinda cosy, i lit the tealights for some semblance of ambience. and we were totally STUFFED with food la.
our gift exchange was totally hilarious, and the presents the guys got for us was definitely more decent, tasteful and extravagant then the stuff we got for them.OOPS. think anna sui perfume and a flirting guidebook. ahhaha as compared to what the gals got which was an assortment of kinky, albeit totally useless stuff for them, erm. think a pair of his and hers nude toothbrushes, a male chastity lock and some monogamous breath mint~ we suck la, felt pretty guilty abt it. but we had a good laugh when they were all "fighting" over the presents. me and jy ran to the toilets to hide temporarily, couldnt bear to see their reactions cos we were laughing so hard. lol. will definitely hafta make up to them sometime.
after that it was just a series of misses, and our plans kinda went downhill from there. we've all grown up some this year i guess, some things have changed but this grp of friends remain very dear to me, they're like my lil piece of haven. which is why i'm damn reluctant to let go, meet and open up to other people. it's about time though...
you can't always get what u want. sigh. oh wells, i need a fresh clean sweep of life to start the new year with. starting with my pigsty of a room. bleah.
Gemstar blogged on 12/26/2005 04:24:00 PM
domenica, dicembre 25, 2005
sulk happy xmas folks. grr. such unreliable friends i have. lost faith already. bleaH.
Gemstar blogged on 12/25/2005 07:21:00 PM
snowy rainy xmas
i almost got a lovely shot of the snowflakes against my window just now. well. they were actually raindrops, but scattered really prettily at the edges of the window.
my behaviour's puzzling me these days, but yeah, i'm kinda like pushing everyone away from me and comfortably spending my time at home. ah ah ah ! ok i apologize once more for the last minute ps-ing. i nd to sort myself out somehow. *i've become so numb..... *
well. last nite at walas was refreshingly interesting for a change, for 1 i was out with the most assorted group of pple... got to know both my cousin's buddy and his drinking buddy, plus edwin and his classmates. heh. but i was just mildly stoned la, somehow, but it was gd company and i enjoyed myself. and the guys sure can drink!!! dunno how many pints of hoegarden they downed. hope it wasn't too awkward with the others, but they sure were an easygoing lot, put them together and you can sorta tell the difference btw the guys our age and the older ones. lol. oops. hahaha. qte amusing. =p yeah but all of them took really gd care of us la, ed was being pretty protective, he and me drew questions from them, separately, lol. and did i mention i love my cuz lots alr? just wish she'd be happier, and honestly she's lucky to have her bunch of friends looking out for her the way they do. or shld i emphasize a particular friend, genuinely adorably warm guy, he is. i totally give my stamp of approval. =p cept things dun really wrk out the way u want to sometimes. oh and did i mention tht we weren't allowed entry upstairs cos we weren't 20??? bah. felt qte bad for the guys but they were damn nice abt it. ah, life.
Gemstar blogged on 12/25/2005 01:36:00 AM
lunedì, dicembre 19, 2005
was it just a dream?
the night intoxicates me like no other, i suspect. Well, at least i THINK i took the family car out for a drive to Prata Cafe at evans road, only to find it was closed... and proceeded on to Holland Village, only to find that most food places are well, closed too, with the exception of this kopitiam and its raucous fans watching soccer...
Hmm. Then i think i went to the drive-through at KAP, ordered our supper, nearly got stuck turning out, before me and my accomplice proceeded home safely in 1 piece, without any scratches to the car whatsoever, at 2 something in the morning.
*phew* what an adventure. and i THINK my parents are none the wiser. YET. waha. cheap thrills. and such liberating freedom w/o the backseat drivers (aka mum/dad) yelling out instructions at you at every turn. and did i mention? i love my accomplice. she was my road directory, car parking lookout and supportive guide rolled into one. me thinks if she had her license she'll defintely make a much better driver than i am. *hugz* thanks babe. we'll do this again, soon. =p
Gemstar blogged on 12/19/2005 03:06:00 PM
mercoledì, dicembre 14, 2005
i burst out laughing when i saw what i got. how... apt. cept i won't be doing any christmas carolling this year.
Your Christmas is Most Like: The Muppet Christmas Carol
You tend to reflect on Christmas past, present, and future... And you also do a little singing.
ok, caught the FOURTH movie (within 1 wks plus) yesterday, and visited town for the nth time just now. Nevermind though, such days are over for now. i'm all settled for my next grand plan for this holidays, which involves *drumroll*
1)JK Rowling's Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince 2)Paulo Coelho's Eleven Minutes 3)Wei Hui's Shanghai Baby 4)Cecelia Acern's Where Rainbows End
and perhaps the scenario i mentioned in my previous entry. still alot more titles i'm hoping to read though, was totally lost for choices at popular and the rental bkstore.Had intended to pay the library visit, and finally pay my outstanding fines (thankfully they don't charge interest),except they gave me the ON LOAN status for all my searches. -_- Not surprisingly, damage done tdy amounted to $60+ but that's okay, i'll get back some once i return those books.
Reading Wishlist 1)Malcom Gladwell's 'Tipping Point' and 'Blink' 2)the Shopaholic series of books 3)Amy Tan's Saving Fish From Drowning 4)other bks frm Paulo Coelho 5)Tuesdays with Morrie
well, do lend them to me if you've any of the above. ( xw, you still have no. 2? ) gimme a bk and i'll be contentedly lost amongst their pages, travelling to faraway lands, living the lives and emotions of their characters. Okay, sucha dry entry, i know. reading's just 1 of my indulgences, its rare when you actually have the time to do so! =)
and just in response to the recent spate of activity on my tag-board, haha, hey guys, glad you love the sookee commercial as much as i do, never expected so many of you to share similar sentiments, but i'm getting bored of all the tags on that and that alone!!! *laughs* although hey, i'll just update THAT entry and add in elmo's link there (many thanks!) so all you guys who've randomly stumbled in here on your song quest can help yourselves! ~peace out.
Gemstar blogged on 12/14/2005 12:55:00 AM
martedì, dicembre 13, 2005
what i really want to do NOW
curl up on a comfy couch with a nice book, an ice-blended mocha, and plug in my mp3 player. look up from time to time and watch the world go by, preferably at some nice cafe in holland v on a rainy day.
what i'm doing NOW dressed up like some jap schlgirl (acc to xm tht's how i ever look these days -_-) ready to go hunt for that elusive harry potter book, meeting becks for dinner thn maybe feb & co after for sth tht's def not gd for my ever-growing tummy and ever declining wallet. dammit.
i need a timeout. and lotsa exercise.
Gemstar blogged on 12/13/2005 03:45:00 PM
domenica, dicembre 11, 2005
booo
oh damn i think i'm falling sick. i can't stop sneezing, plus i've got this weird rash that came outta nowhere, all over my body. *itch itch* suspect it was the liquer samples tht yit kindly offered me at the flachenegist the day before, cos the last time this happenened was when i went drinking those HUGE margs with the clique i think. perhaps an allergy to a certain sth in those alcohol mixes. *slurp* and yit...yea, i love the vanilla flavored one !!
crap.... oh my dad drove us to mount faber today, to check-out what the whole hoo-ha abt the Jewel Box was. turned out the rest of singapore had the same idea too. so many cars, so many pple -_-"!! guess we really have a severe lack of entertainment choices huh. but we missed the firewrks show by the time we got out of the car. bleah. and anyway the place is a tourist trap la, unless u're feeling rich enough to wine and dine there and admire the show. $118 per adult on wkdays,$128 on fri-sun.
so we left feeling conned, and i smartly suggested gg to harbor front to walk abt instead, cos i'm in a shoe fetish lately after my espadrilles, just wanted to go take a look at vnc's stuff. and i bumped into xm plus the whole group of them heading for zoukout!!!! ah. so -_- , esp when you're not going. sigh. i'm in a depressive mood lately.
on the bright side, check these beauties out~ happy shoes!! omg i'm esp in love with the 3rd one. and guess wad, they're mostly from a chinese website. i. want to. go. china!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gemstar blogged on 12/11/2005 12:45:00 AM
sabato, dicembre 10, 2005
grrr ultra bad mood now. no1 better step on my toes. shit i've stepped into some hell-hole. i better really take some time off this hols to really ponder my options. gawd help me.
focus on the happy stuff focus focus. its times like these i really really really miss my beaaaaaaaaar. *sniffles* well he's kinda having fun in camp now, wad with all the new recruits calling him sir. heh, amused.
oh, and man was qte sweet ytdy, he was like, "u looked a lil sad just now?" which surprised me cos it used to be someone-else who noticed and asked. i don't really write my moods on my face or do i? unless i'm horribly low. and yea thn he was like "u can tell me, i'm a gd listener..." and i realized sth. i don't really KNOW my uni friends do i? but yea, was mildly comforted by our conversation, he's supposed to teach me wakeboarding when he gets back! hmm... uni friends~ i so detest the superficiality tht goes with the "netwrking" crap. but i guess, it'll prob get worse when we start wrking. so its like the last chance to make 'true-r' friends!
and zoe if u're reading this, u won ! zb got an A dammit !!! heh. he bluffed me summore. tell u more nxt time.
it's so gonna be a sucky xmas. i nd a lil more joy. please?
Gemstar blogged on 12/10/2005 12:53:00 AM
my curls!/ iceskating with the cousins. we were severely overaged at the rink/ me and shan in her hostel rm/ darylbee/ me and serene outside some church. the royal photographer didn't prepare the lighting properly. lol/ me and hl acting as tourists at the esplanade / barbie & pegasus at marina on the bus back / my lovely new shoes !!!
Gemstar blogged on 12/10/2005 12:09:00 AM
mercoledì, dicembre 07, 2005
And So It Goes ~ Billy Joel
In every heart there is a room A sanctuary safe and strong To heal the wounds from lovers past Until a new one comes along
I spoke to you in cautious tones You answered me with no pretense And still I feel I said too much My silence is my self defense
And every time I've held a rose It seems I only felt the thorns And so it goes, and so it goes And so will you soon I suppose
But if my silence made you leave Then that would be my worst mistake So I will share this room with you And you can have this heart to break
And this is why my eyes are closed It's just as well for all I've seen And so it goes, and so it goes And you're the only one who knows
So I would choose to be with you That's if the choice were mine to make But you can make decisions too And you can have this heart to break
And so it goes, and so it goes And you're the only one who knows
======================== things will never be the same again
and so you said you were trying your best to forget him. yet you're still wearing the crytal pendant necklace he gave you. the watch, another gift, lies amongst your favourite stuff on your dressing table.
it still hurts doesn't it? don't lie to yourself. you're happy with life as it is... or are you really? just surrounding yourself with noise and activity to take away that emptiness. that's the only way you can move on, and show everyone, especially him "hey. look at me. i'm having fun, i'm alright!"
it just... takes time i guess. soon, all these won't matter. go easy. let it hurt. its okay.
things will never be the same again.
- round 1... round 2... round 3. falling in, falling out. fallen in, and fell. hard. found yourself back to square 1 again. sounds familiar? perhaps we're all just going round in circles.
just missing the 'us' back then. which sadly, had been lost along the way.
there's no way things are ever going to be the same again, you've gotta accept that.
-
you demanded a divorce. he asked for another chance, for the family.
the taste of his betrayal, still bitter. the hurt, stings.
yet u agreed. found it in your heart to accept him again. you can see he's trying.
a truce, an uneasy tension settles in.
things will never be the same again.
-
he treated you like a princess. showered you with attention, patience. but you never knew better, did you. thought nothing much of it, and lapped up everything as it is.
till you finally realized his intentions. totally discomfitting, and awkward.
and you ran away. things will never be the same again.
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funny how the thoughts just flowed when vi sent me this song. it's a heart-aching, melancholic piece. above, just a mish-mash and collection of experiences i came across. No parties were named to protect the identities of the innocent. =p its hard to be not cynical abt relationships ain't it. and there's still more not written yet, perhaps i'll come up with another series of shorts when i'm in the mood.
like pq says, someone, just sweep me off my feet now ~
Gemstar blogged on 12/07/2005 01:03:00 AM
domenica, dicembre 04, 2005
cheers
well and so its time for a pamper-yourself break...
great.
which saw me having MANY meals in 1 day in celebration of the end of the exams.
1) went to marche with some of the class ppz right after b-law. for part 1. saw qte a few other grps of fellow smoo-vians there too. was 1 of the best meals i've had in a pretty long time...everyone was just indulging. the rosti came with an extra huge dollop of sour cream, bbq-ed dory fish, ham and cheese crepe, mushroom soup, salmon pasta, pizza, calamari...
2) part 2. met up with yit, haotian, june at orchard right after. my friends are babe-licious manz. i swear ht gets more beautiful each time i see her. she had her hair tied up in this casual ponytail, lol, and i really didn't notice till she showed us tht she was actually using those lousy use-to-tie-chicken-rice-packet kind of rubber band. haha geez, anything goes when you look gd. june was damn cute she came in shorts, and was like... "i apologize for wearing such sloppy stuff, but its okay, i brought a skirt !!" which was hilarious,cos she proceeded to wear her skirt ON THE SPOT in front of everyone. (we were at coffee bean) so the gals moved on to heeren's nydc for their dinner. i had a kahlua mud pie. o_o that was richly sinful. but damn, i'm so going back for more!
3) next met up with my ct group at al ameen for dinner. i was really shuttling from 1 venue to the next right after, and yea, by this time was super full already!! so i wastched them eat instead. yupz. cos our polish polar bear(u'll know why after i put up the photos) mj's leaving for china , then flying back all the way home to poland after tht trip on the 21st. so essentially tht was our farewell dinner with him. haha. he's had enough of the s'pore system, but i don't see why he's complaining since he's been partying hard throughout the sem !!! and i seriously mean tht, the guy's really living it up, and he's been to soooo many places ukraine, hongkong, thailand, italy, france... blahblah and found himself awake in some stranger's (presumably female) bed the mornings after all those parties here and there. lol. we're always teasing him abt that, but honestly, their way of life is totally different. refreshing to hear his stories though, in contrast to our dull boring lives, and he has that deadpan sense of humour which makes it all the more funny.
just back from tong's concert at soka. woah. its the first time i heard her sing, and yea, she's damn gd. i've talented cousins manz. anyway this concert's 1 of the weirdest i've been to, in the sense that it was very cha-pa-lang , with different performances thrown in. they had a violin recital, a grp clarinet intrumental piece, various ppl playing the piano, a garbage can, pail slamming(which broke into 2 pieces) rythmic piece ala "stomp", a ballet item, a hip-hop, a pop/rock band playing, and of course the singing, and get this, a mass dance which they got the audience to participate in. there were testimonials interspersed in between and oh yea, a chanting session at the beginning with the reverand (soka's a buddhist association). no offense to anyone, but i got goosebumps when everyone started the chants, "nam myo hor reng geh kyo". but the deep-sounding toll of the chime was... very peaceful. all in all, i loved my cousin's perf, the hip-hop item... and japanese singer who was playing the piano and singing in that j-rock style. *swoon* yups, i thoroughly enjoyed the perf by the band too, esp the cute guy on rythm guitar. waha.
